Drained

I'm done, tapped out, caput. I'm about to make a big change and there are going to be some feelings hurt but I gotta do what I gotta do. I've helped so many people in the last four years but, it's about to stop. I've said this before but it's getting to a sink or swim point. I wanna do what want to do with out this monkey on my back. I've got goals to accomplish (debt free being one of them). I'm doing for everybody else so I'm about to do for me. I'm going to be selfish for a while till I get my mind, body, & spirit in the correct place. Time to close up shop cause this well is running dry.

Time to minimize the material and maximize my life experience . I've got start acting below my wage to set things straight again and that includes stop supporting those that should be supporting themselves.

Indifferent

That's what I'm working on right now. I've dealt with the pain, guilt and anger. Still working on the trusting issue but, what can I say I'm a work in progress. Instead of completely excising the wound done to me I'm going to try and let it heal on its own but it's a process that's not going to happen overnight.

So indifference is all I have right now. I wasn't the one you went to in the beginning so go find the ones you went to then, if things go sour. You were so quick to go to them but; duck, dodge & lie to me that I hope that they will be there for you. Because right now I'm not feeling it. I can't really muster up the emotion to care.

Your own your own with this one right now, I gotta work on me.