That awkward moment when...

you realize that your a stranger in a roomful of friends. Yea.... I seriously experienced this tonight. So much so that it was quite uncomfortable when an argument came up. I'm talking closed door arguing like a married couple type stuff.  It was a very strange happening.  

The worst part is these people are people that I would each call friend. They have grown extremely close over the past 2 years and even tighter (in the biblical sense) in the last few months. (BTW, I'm not supposed to know this **rolls eyes**) They have even damn near started doing the 'twin-speak' thing (which is kinda cute). They have also started doing the whole talking around a subject. 

I think that's what pisses me off the most. We are all grown and I don't feel the need to hide or pussy-foot around a subject. Don't fucking talk in metaphors or code like I'm a two year old. I can't even be myself and joke about them breaking the bed during the act that shall not be named. It's okay for it to be put on a photo site as a joke and one of the boys will probably make a joke but me make one?!? OHHH NOOO!!! Lil' ole me can't say a damned thing. 

At first I was a little bit jealous of how close they were becoming. I got over that when I (and almost everyone else on the planet) recognized how good they are for each other and how much the push each other to do better. I want my friends to be happy. I'm happy when they are happy. However, I am disappointed in how they can't be open with me. So right now, I'm not so happy. 

I'm not a confrontational person by any means but, tonight I had to say something and show it in my actions. I did in my kinda sorta passive aggressive manner. When they were discussing an upcoming project I informed them (hand-actions and all) that I was not included in their little loop and no one felt the need to inform me of anything. Also, when that lil' dust up happened. I waited for about 2 minutes of the door being closed and I left. Without saying a word...