It's 5am and I should be deep in REM sleep. Yet, here I am awake with a hankering for pizza. Tonight's one of those nights I wish I didn't have feelings. I'm all in them now and it's not cool. I'm not all weepy or anything (that was last week -damn you aunt flo). I'm actually fighting the urge to be an outright bitch. So I'm avoiding. Keeping to myself so I don't let my actions come from a place of hurt. I'm slowly getting over it but, I have learned my 'place' you could say. I thought I was going to be able to learn to trust again but I'm starting to realize that I'm not that mature yet & at this present time I have no desire to be.
I know silly right?
I also think that it's funny the last few weeks I've been asked twice about my love life. And my reaction to both was meh....
I've been celibate for two years & I've gotten to the point where it doesn't even bother me anymore.
Yup, I'm crazy.
The thought of me having to share my space & be considerate of someone else's feelings.....
Shieeeet, I don't even like my own feelings.
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