Tired

I'm TIRED!!!!!!!!ARGHHHHHH!!!!
Tired of games. Tired of work. Tired of life. Tired of pretending to give a shit. Ehh, who the fuck am I kidding. I have to big a heart and I'm tired of it getting trampled on. People are always taking my kindness for a weakness and maybe their right. It's just, well... I was raised to CARE about people to help others when you see them trying to help themselves but I can't help everybody. So I'm going to stop. Right here, right now. Helping everybody else has left my empty and damn near soul-less. I need time to focus on myself. Get MY mind right and my body. I was already working my way into being a cold-heart less bitch but I might as well start early. It's time for me to be selfish for a while.
The walls are going up and my heart is going in a little tiny box under lock and key and going up on the shelf. After it has time to heal, I'll think about taking it down and sharing it for a bit but only after I have ensured all the proper defense are in place so it won't get broke again.