I'm going to become a fucking hermit

I hate feelings. I don't want them anymore. I just want to curl up in a ball and shut the world out. I'm a jumble of emotions right now and it's frustrating. I just want them taken away for a moment so I can sort it all out. I feel betrayed and logically I shouldn't but, still I do. I dunno, I kinda want to give up on life at the moment. Too bad I can't just pull a disappearing act. That would be cool but, being a responsible adult calls.